Several times you’ve thought about it.
Each time you do, each time you think about it, you scream.
And then you cry tears of happiness.
Every single time.
What a wacko!
Look at you.
On the train.
In the living room.
At the market.
Slowly drifting off in bed.
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!
Tears. Laughter.
Every time you think about it.
Not like that, not anything like what I just did.
But in your head.
Screaming in your head. Like you’re going to disappear.
As if as soon as you stop screaming


And then relax.
Count to ten.
Think about dinosaurs…


Don’t tell me.
Don’t tell me it doesn’t happen.
Because I know when you’re lying:

You start screaming.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!
Tears. Laughter.